I'm in love with someone.
I can't live with you.
Why does it have to be him?
Megu...
Please stay next to me.
Yes.
- Are you okay? - Yeah.
Good night.
- Mom. - Hmm?
There is someone I want you to meet.
Someone who stays with me and supports me.
I am Hongo Megumi.
Megu went to the same college as me and now she is a care worker.
I see.
I'm thinking of giving her the key to this house too.
She might stay over here when you are back in Yamanashi.
Are you sure you can rely on her that much?
If it's necessary, we can ask another care worker to come.
I'm fine with it.
We are going to see her mother after this.
Thank you.
This feels so strange...
for you to bring your ex-boyfriend, Megumi.
Megumi-san and I became close again.
Megumi is a care worker.
I'm sure she can help you in many ways.
I want to be with Takuto as much as I can.
I'm sorry for all the trouble I'm causing.
Do you know what you are doing?
I know.
If you know, you wouldn't do this.
I do.
No, you don't.
You broke up with Shigeyuki-san?
You promised to marry him. It's not that simple, is it?
I already said I know.
Did Shigeyuki-san agree to this?
Megumi, wake up.
I have to go to work.
This isn't allowed.
What do you want to talk about?
I didn't know what to say...
What the heck?
Do you know who's the last person I want to see right now?
I'm sorry.
It's all my fault.
Please... forgive Megu.
Don't ever show yourself to me.
I will never see you two again.
I'm coming in.
- Should we go? - Yeah.
What happened?
He punched me for my sake.
I see.
Excuse us.
Oh.
Doctor, I brought a very precious person with me today.
I'm Hongo.
I'm Tanimoto.
Please.
She is a care worker, so she understands me well.
Is she listening to your self-indulgence?
I think that will happen in the future.
Having someone you can open your heart to is significant.
Yes.
Well... your breathing is slightly weaker.
But there is no need for you to change how you live yet.
Don't push yourself. Please come to me right away if something changes.
Yes.
Ah, should I explain to you about the breathing too, Hongo-san?
I'm sure you know a lot since you are a care worker.
Yes, please.
I expect the weakness in the muscles of respiration to happen next.
When the symptoms progress and if the respiratory paralysis becomes severe...
we will make a hole into your trachea and you'll breathe through that with a ventilator.
Being on the ventilator is the only way to overcome respiratory problems in the long-run.
You will need to decide whether or not you will be on the ventilator.
But what makes this problem more difficult is...
during the progression of your symptoms, your decision may keep changing.
Moreover, once you are on the ventilator, you will not be able to take it off.
Since this is an important issue that is life-threatening...
when you get a symptom that requires you to be on a ventilator...
we will have to discuss this with your family.
Megu, are you all right?
Yeah, how about you, Takuto?
Yeah, I'm okay.
I wonder how many times I have to prepare myself.
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[The Hours Of My Life]
Where is Rikuto-kun today?
I invited him, but he didn't want to join today.
I see.
It's ready.
Before that, may I have a moment?
What is it?
I protected them.
That's what I expect from you, Mamo-chan.
I actually tried but I couldn't throw them away.
I'm so happy.
- Thank you. - Let's eat.
- And this is the main part. - We should eat or it will get burned.
It's okay.
Ah.
Hina-chan.
Huh? What is it?
I love you more than anyone in the world, Hina-chan.
Will you go out with me?
Please.
No.
What?
I will marry you instead.
My eternal lover is Ed.
I don't mind you being my husband.
Will you or not?
I will.
Will you marry me?
Yes, I will marry you.
Yes...
Yes! Yes!
- Yes! Yes! Yes! - I'm happy for you.
Congrats.
- Yes! Yes! - Don't.
- Here you go. - Thank you.
It's still hot.
Rikuto, there is food for you.
Yeah.
You should have eaten with us.
But I haven't decided what I'm going to do yet.
Although even if I did decide...
I'm anxious that I might not get along with people around me.
What?
When I'm with you, you tell me if I say something bad.
But other people wouldn't do that.
But you shouldn't be so anxious about it.
I remember the awful memories from medical school suddenly...
and I can't get them out of my head.
How about your food?
I don't feel like eating.
Se...
Na...
Ka...
Is your back itchy?
Okay.
Excuse me.
Is it here?
What are you talking about? You are just being too dependent.
Listen, conflicts with people can happen anywhere.
It happens to me too.
In and out of the hospital, there is no end to relationship problems.
You can't just stay inside because you can't solve each conflict on your own.
It's my fault.
I paid too much attention to him.
I'm the one who took away the ability to solve problems from him.
Because you always protect Rikuto he has become spoiled.
You have no right to tell me that since you didn't do anything.
Playing at the playground or taking them to the zoo...
Did you do those things that parents would normally do?
You should know how hard it is to run a hospital.
But we did take a family trip once a year and...
- I went to every school event. - For whose sake?
- What are you trying to say? - Because you care how other people see you.
- Please stop it. - Stop it.
First, please understand what Rikuto is suffering from.
I already said he's being too dependent.
Rikuto unintentionally offends others and makes people feel unpleasant.
He is having trouble communicating with people.
He is suffering because he can't fix it easily.
Dad, to you he seems to be too dependent, but...
Rikuto is being pushed against the wall.
People know that I need help just by looking at me.
But no one notices that Rikuto needs help too.
If we can't understand his suffering...
what's the point of being a family?
I know you are desperate to send him back to medical school.
There are many people who can't go to medical school even if they want to.
Do you know how fortunate you are?
I know.
I completely understand that but I don't want to be a doctor.
There is something you have to protect since you were born into this family.
Is that...
something that we really have to protect?
I will talk to Dad.
Just do what you want to do, Riku-chan.
I'm sorry, Mom.
Don't be. Please take care of Takuto.
Yeah.
I will be fine. Megu is coming too.
Right... good bye.
[1 unread e-mail message]
[To Sawada-kun] Ah.
It's from Tamotsu-san.
What have you been up to? Are you still playing soccer?
I can no longer speak now.
I'm surprised that it's progressing faster than I expected.
It's getting harder to breathe as well.
I think the day is near.
Have you decided already, Sawada-kun?
What did he say?
He says he can't talk anymore.
Right. He is having a hard time eating too.
I will not be on a ventilator.
It's not that I'm dying without a ventilator.
I chose a life that I wouldn't be on a ventilator.
Are you okay?
Yeah.
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[Send and Receive]
[Received 1 e-mail from Sawada Takuto-san]
It's a nice scent.
I'm glad. I mixed it for you, Takuto.
My sense of smell will never be taken away.
Yes.
And sensation of skin stays too.
Yes.
I feel at ease.
Yes.
I think...
the advertisement that I'm working on will be the last one.
My work pace slowed down suddenly.
I see.
I have to make this a masterpiece, right?
Yes.
- Good morning. - Good morning.
- This is my younger brother. - Good morning.
Good morning.
All right. Let's do it.
It's been a while.
Yes.
I'm going to Tokyo now.
Today is Takuto's last day at work.
I see.
About Rikuto...
we should stop forcing him to live a life that we desire.
I've tried to be a good wife until now as well, but...
I feel like I didn't live my own life.
I don't want Rikuto to feel this way.
I'm leaving.
Store manager, it's finished.
Good. Let's use this.
Yes.
- Thank you for your hard work. - Thank you very much.
Lastly we would like to hear a word from you.
Yes.
Yesterday I recalled the day of the job interview.
At that time, even though I was able to do anything if I tried to...
I had no goal and spent everyday hoping to get any type of full-time job.
Since I joined this company, I worked desperately...
and I learned how tough and pleasurable work can be.
Since I became sick, I lost things that I could do one by one...
But at this company...
I could find my goals one by one.
With everyone's help...
and support...
I could keep working.
I could find a purpose in life.
I really want to stand up and put my head down and tell you how grateful I am.
But please excuse me for sitting like this.
I really appreciate everything.
Thank you very much.
[Takuto, Rikuto]
Your name and my name both have the kanji character for 'person.'
It's nice.
Yeah.
We are home.
Welcome home.
It's wonderful.
Takuto, you worked so hard.
You did a great job.
Let's eat.
Did Dad say anything after that?
No, you don't have to worry about it, Riku-chan.
I'm coming in.
You worked very hard.
- I have to find a new goal. - Me too.
- Takuto, today... - Good evening.
Good evening.
Sato-san isn't coming today, is she?
No.
Then I will clean your body with a towel.
I will help him with the bath.
Megu is going to give me a bath.
I see.
I am going home now.
Could we talk for a minute?
[Mom praised me.]
Thank you for supporting Takuto.
I would like to visit your mother sometime and meet her.
No, you don't need to.
This is not a normal relationship between a young couple.
No, really...
This is a normal relationship for us.
Even if you are okay with it, as a parent I can't just leave this only up to you two.
I am Sawada Takuto's mother.
I am Megumi's mother.
Please. I apologize for taking so long.
Thank you very much.
Megumi-san has been helping Takuto tremendously.
About Takuto-kun... I don't know what to say...
I'm sure it must have been hard for you.
I would like to have this.
It's very delicious.
I'm glad.
I rarely eat a fancy cake like this.
I have to enjoy every bite of it.
My husband passed away and I raised Megumi by myself.
There are things that she wanted to do but she couldn't because of our financial situation.
But she grew up to be a kind girl.
- I shouldn't talk about my daughter like this. - It's fine.
She works so hard as a care worker.
I think she simply wants to help other people.
She is a really good girl.
Yes.
She can't leave Takuto-kun alone either.
Frankly... I'm troubled.
Megumi has been ignoring the person she is going to marry and helping Takuto-kun.
Person she is going to marry?
Megumi wants to stay with Takuto-kun forever.
But when I think what she will have to bear...
as her mother, I just can't agree to this.
I'm so sorry.
I too would like to help Takuto-kun in whatever way I can, but...
No, I didn't know anything about this. I'm really sorry.
Are you reading that again?
Yeah.
You should go to medical school instead.
Why can no one else take my life but me?
Of course no one can...
What is it?
I told Takuto-kun's mother that I don't want you to go his place.
I'm going to his place even still.
- Megumi. - His illness is irrelevant.
It's not that simple.
Are you regretting that you married Dad?
Do you wish that you had married someone who didn't get sick?
I don't.
See?
I am happy that I could stay with him until the end.
I'm glad that I could be there when he died.
Then let me do the same...
If I have to live the same life one more time...
I can't do it again.
And Takuto-kun's disease is much more cruel than Dad's, isn't it?
Yes.
What?
I was told that Megumi-san was engaged to marry.
Megumi-san's mother is still hoping that she will marry him.
We both want to stay together.
I'm sorry to come so suddenly.
Megumi-san.
Takuto.
Tamotsu-san passed away.
It's not that I'm dying without a ventilator.
I chose a life that I wouldn't be on a ventilator.
[I don't think I'll be on a ventilator either.]
Takuto.
Hmm?
I don't want to be separated from you.
I want to be with you as much as I can.
I want to spend every second with you.
Yeah. Let's stay together.
Megu.
Hmm?
I found my new goal.
What is it?
Big brother.
Do you know what time it is?
6:13.
- I actually don't need to know the time. - I've decided.
My goal... what I want to do.
I see.
- What do you think? - I think it's great.
- I wanted to tell you this right away. - You are too loud.
Mom is sleeping.
Oh, okay.
Will you be able to tell that to Dad too?
Yeah. But when?
I will ask him if he is available this Saturday.
Okay.
Oh...
That's their anniversary.
What do you want to ask me?
Rikuto will go first.
Please allow me to go to a university.
I want to research dinosaurs.
So I want to get into a school where I can do that.
Please.
Why dinosaurs?
That's the thing that I love the most and am interested in.
Will you be able to make enough money with dinosaurs?
I'll do my best to make it so.
I'll live on my own after graduating from school.
I'm not sure if I will be able to get along with people.
But for dinosaur research, I will definitely overcome the problem.
How about you, Takuto?
Please allow me to go to a university too.
I want to go to medical school and study.
Can you become a doctor?
Even if I get into a school, I'm not sure if I can graduate since I can't be a resident.
It will take at least a year if I start studying for the exam now.
I don't know what kind of condition I will be then.
But...
I want to get into medical school right now.
I won't let ALS take away my feelings.
Takuto.
We wished you to open up your future on your own.
That's why your mother and I named you 'Takuto.'
Rikuto.
Taking root in the land...
We wished you to live with dignity and faith.
It looks like all I can do for you now is to pay your tuition.
Both of you, follow a path that you've chosen.
- Yes. - Yes.
Thank you.
Please wait.
We have a present for Dad and Mom.
[January 11, 1987]
[Dad and Mom got married.]
[It's the beginning of our family.]
[Two years later, Takuto was born.]
[Takuto]
[Four years later, Rikuto was born.]
Riku-chan.
[Rikuto]
[We became a family of four.]
[Elementary School Entrance Ceremony]
[We did many things together.]
[Dad is a respected doctor.]
[Mom is an excellent cook.]
[Takuto with ALS]
[Rikuto is...]
[We are sorry for always making you worry.]
[We are sorry that we aren't the best sons.]
[We are sorry.]
[Even though we are like this...]
[Please stay with us as a family even from now on.]
[Our lives began with Dad and Mom.]
[Thank you.]
[Thank you. Thank you.]
[Dad and Mom]
[Happy anniversary.]
[Please stay healthy forever.]
[From Takuto. From Rikuto.]
Thank you...
I'm happy to be your mother.
Why don't we take a picture for the memory?
Sure.
Ready?
I feel shy.
What?
I don't think Rikuto was ready.
Let's take another one.
How is it?
- It looks good, doesn't it? - Nice.
[Sawada Takuto] [January 11, 2014]
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[It's not that I want to die... I'm scared to live...]
Takuto is missing.